Have you ever noticed that we tend to make linear plans: point A to point B? In my mind, my training has a linear and upward slope steadily moving forward toward more challenging competition as I steadily improve my skills and strength. In reality, my plan is little more spiral than linear!
This week, I feel like I spiraled backwards a little even out of control, struggling to focus... on my serve receive, communication with my partner, getting my serve in and just questioning my potential.
I have a pro tournament in two days, and I am just scared that the momentum will not shift. After two days of frustrating practice, today is one of those days that it would be easier to give up than to head back out into the heat, sand, and wind where the critical voices swirl(mostly mine). I wonder who will show up today? The strong, confident, dedicated Sarah with ball control? Or the weak, passive, unfocused Sarah?
The truth is that I have been here before. I have struggled with confidence and focus before. I have given up before. But today, today, I will not give into self-doubt. I will decide right now to drink extra water, eat whole foods, stretch, breath and show up at practice with a renewed dedication to my goal and my partner.(I can feel the spiral coming back around as I write.) Yes, I have decided the strong, confident, dedicated Sarah will be out on the sand today! The wind might howl a bit, but I am sure it will just be telling me, "Good girl!"
Peace,
Sarah
P.S. I'll let you know how the tournament goes!
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